Carissa Galow's Blog (149)

There is a song by Halestorm called Mz. Hyde and I found that I could identify with it a bit. Living with Bi-Polar disorder, well sometimes I am Ms. Hyde and sometimes I’m Dr. Jekyll, just depends on the day, sometimes the moment. And, one really never knows in advance which girl you will be dealing with, including myself.  Dealing with Schizophrenia…

Oh what a wondrous thing it is, this thing we call technology

From advancements in science to keeping us in touch with those overseas

It has helped us as a race do so many great things, surely that's easy to see

Though I also believe that many have become too dependent on it, even me

As it is, I am online right now instead of…

Spring may only be weeks away

Yet it feels like winter is here to stay

I’m trying to be happy about this snowy season

But I’m having difficulty finding even one reason

The cold air makes my skin so very dry

It’s become cracked & so painful that I want to cry

I got my snow on Christmas Day

Now I beg…

Join me for a little pre-Valentine’s Day rant

Though before I begin, let me set the record straight

I’m not single, bitter, & jaded, though I once was

Happily taken am I, but my views on this day are ones I won’t recant

My view is and has always been this about love & devotion

We should show one another how…

From parents, brothers & sisters, & nieces & nephews

To aunts & uncles, grandparents, cousins, and all the way through

Family is precious, each & every single member mean so much to me

No matter the distance or how close the relationship may or may not be

Not a single day goes by when I don’t think of my…

When chaos surrounds my every moment

And I have been subjected to loss & torment

Thoughts & emotions flood my veins

There must be a way to express my anger, sorrow, & pain

That’s when I turn to a wondrous thing called music

It helps me tell my story, no matter whether I’m happy or heartsick

I can…

I can’t believe how these last eleven years have flown

Looking at where once a small boy stood, I see just how much he’s grown

Once he took naps, liked to cuddle, & needed my help for everything

And as I look at him as he is now, I wonder what the future will bring

I try not to worry & just place it all in God’s…

They say that good friends are hard to find

But I believe that’s only true if you don’t use your mind

I made some mistakes over the years on whom I chose to trust

I now know that mutual respect, loyalty, & communication are all a must

Common interests & chemistry also play a part 

In fact, that’s where…

I was ready to give up on finding the one for me

So very ready to put my heart under lock & key

I wanted to fall in love & see it last the test of time

But my track record suggested I’d never know that feeling so sublime

Over the years, my heart had been shattered too many times to recall

And yet after each…

For years, I wandered through the ashes of my past

Dwelling on pain, guilt, & heartaches that I thought would forever last

“Will I ever be able to move on, from my yesterdays be set free?”

I cried out to anyone who was willing to hear me

Scattered memories lingered deep within my mind

I just couldn’t seem to find…

As the cold clings to my bones

Refusing to let its hold on me go

The sun shines, radiating off me a golden glow

Renewing within me a fierce hope

I have faced worse than this

And always have made it through

I know that there is joy in the days ahead

Realizing this, I no longer face this day with…

As the last light of the day fades away

I find my mind trying to lead me astray

My body is weary and ready for rest

But my thoughts try to take me on a most lengthy quest

Thus is the way it goes most every night

I fight dragons and demons with all my might

Just to try and get a little sleep

Wishing for…

On this the day of rest

Our love for You is put to the test

Will we rise ready to praise your name?

Or will sleeping in and ignoring You be our game?

Yes, it is true that every single day we should adore You

Not just on the Sabbath should we sing your praises, this is so true

But, it is on this day when we’re…

On the defensive, you retreat

Trying to shield yourself from harm

So high and thick is the wall you have built

Refusing to allow anyone to gain entrance

Yet you're more vulnerable than ever



You hold a weapon to defend yourself

A sword…

Beaten down once again for my mental crimes

I lie on the ground shaking, in tears

This has happened to me one too many times

Being brought low by my own insecurities, doubts, & fears

I have been my worst enemy for years

Allowing my own mind to wage battles against me

I do more to harm myself than any of my…

One hand upon the steering wheel

The other is resting upon the door frame

My GPS is telling me where to go

I feel like I’m in total control

The sun is shining upon me

It’s warming my skin

Today is one of those days

That I could make anything happen

To make this day even better

There needs…

Through the wind and the freezing rain

It becomes increasingly difficult to ignore the pain

My knees are crying out to me

It would be best for us to rest, can you not see?

Tis the season when Bronchitis stalks me

I beg with all my might for it to flee

But like a stubborn child unwilling to submit

It decides it’s…

My heart tells me this

That God truly exists

His love is real, powerful, & everlasting

Because of what He’s done, I shall not feel death’s sting

But there’s something I must confess

Understand this, it doesn’t make me love Him less

God wasn’t fabricated

But religion itself was indeed…

Almost always rushing

Bills to pay

Cat to feed

Deadlines to make

Everyone needs something

Food to put on the table

Garbage to take out

Homework to help with

Ice to scrape off the car

Jealousy to calm

Knees to soothe

Laundry to do

Mistakes to remedy

Nails breaking

Oil needs…

Barely a man

Overseas he travels

So very far from home

To a fight for our country

He doesn’t understand why

He just knows our country needs him

So he prepares to give all he has

To defend the land he loves

He faced things he never dreamed of

But now it’s all he can do to escape the…