Carissa Galow's Blog (149)

Up, down, and all around

I've been looking all day

But my sanity is no where to be found

There's so much I have to say

But the words won't come, to my dismay



So isolated, feeling cut off from those I love

Frustrated and just at my wits…

Thoughts jumble together within my mind

Tangled in thick yarn

Unable to separate them

Wanting to break them free

So that perhaps then you will see

The words are there

At the tip of my tongue

If only I could make a connection

Between my mouth and my mind

Perhaps then an explanation you would…

The birds sing

The sound echos all around me

I try to trap the music in a jar

To listen to it at a later date

The snow melts, more and more each day

Bright and warm, the sun comes to greet me

Squirrels scamper to and fro

So it would seem that Spring is here

Winter’s chill still…

A seemingly quiet beach I roamed

Warm sand beneath my feet

Quieting my mind of all thoughts

Seeking peace and tranquility

No worries, cares, or voices to tug at me

It’s easier to find a quiet place

Than it is to quiet the mind

The voices try to break free

Emotions try to overwhelm me

“SEE ME!”, they all cry

Sometimes we just need a moment totally alone

Fully free from everything

Even…

It’s been a rough day

Nothing has gone right

I want to make the stress go away

Forget today and let’s call it a night

You walk through the door

With that adorable half smile on your face

Oh how you make my heart soar

Don’t you know you’re my happy place?

It’s easy for you to tell it’s been a…

Who is this staring at me?

I don't recognize the face I see

Time has changed so much

The way I smile, laugh, and touch

Deep within, I'm still the same

My faith, my heart, my name

One's core can remain in tact

So much else changes, that's a fact

My nature has always been to love

That was instilled in my soul from above

The way that I show it now has grown

In ways that are well…

There was a time long ago

Or maybe not so long ago at all

When I couldn't feel Your presence

Though You were right there with me

Upon a tornardo, I spun

Wreckless, I tore through town

Doing as I pleased

Never fully facing the consequences

Giving into peer pressure

Partying it up

Staying up late

Hey let me take another hit

The lines between my realities blurred

A yearning for…

A thin film covered my eyes

Through it, I saw what the puppet master wanted me to see

I let him hold the strings

I danced, cried, laughed, and lived as he wanted me to

He held the power

Because I gave it to him

Freely, without reservation

Take my life in your hands and I will do as you wish

He’d build me up

I’d see beauty all around me

I’d laugh, smile, and love with all I had

Feeling like I could…

“Hey, Sal, wait up!” a familiar voice called from behind me.

Ugh. Maybe if I pretend to be deaf, he’ll go away. Though somehow, I doubt I’d get that lucky.

“Sally! I know you can hear me. Would you wait up?” that familiar voice sounded again, a little out of breath and quite a bit closer now.

I stopped, turned, and faced the king of the chess club. When will he ever get it through his head that I am not interested in being his video project subject? Aren’t there other kids…

It's a meager start, but it's a start none the less! I wanted to share my start to this project with you guys and dolls, hope you enjoy it! The art is obviously not my own and would need someone to draw something for me, if anyone is interested. :)

Sally Fallacy and the Web of Lies

It's just a…

Standing in front of the mirror

I see the changes

Old versions of me shed themselves

Without even noticing at the time

That was what pain, determination, and love did to me

A year from now, there will be more changes

As yet more of my old skin flakes off

Even weeks from now

Perhaps even tomorrow

Ever growing, ever evolving

I am not the girl I once was

And nor am I the girl I will be

Always…

I was attempting to take a nap and my mind began to wander, as it often does. I started thinking about letters of the alphabet and things about me and in my life as it is to represent each one. I decided to run with it and make a blog out of it. :)

Applying myself, applying to jobs, Archer

Bowling, books, blogging

Cooking, cleaning, creativity

Doug, dreaming, doing

Empathy, experimenting,…

This Thursday is Valentine’s Day. Instead of going out to a fancy restaurant, we chose to eat bacon cheeseburgers that we had once before at a local pub within walking distance. We might get in our two free weekly practice games at the lanes we bowl league at or we'll just watch some Archer on DVD. We’re not buying one another pricey gifts or doing anything out of the ordinary. Why? Some people are into that, we’re not. We choose to treat it as another chance to spend time together, as…

I have given a lot of thought to some things lately and I want to share the mutterings of my mind with you. 

For so long, I went around saying that love can be cruel, full of heartache and sorrow. I now view this differently. It is not love itself that causes heartache, that causes one to hurt. What causes the pain is the absence of love. Love itself has the power to help, to heal, to change hearts for the better. When we lack love, when we’re not loved in return, this is when the…

Some say it's just a four letter word

Overused and pretty much meaningless

Truth is many do say it absentmindedly 

Not giving thought to what it really means

Many have been hurt over time

Due to hearing it when it wasn't true

Leaving hearts bitter and skeptical

How much could the word mean if it's so easily used?

When true and pure

Love has powers many haven't seen

Too many hearts are locked…

A jaded heart

One that's been torn apart

Too many times to count

For the tears shed, there's no known amount

A wall built sky high

To keep out every lie

Love is people's foolish notions

Why bother going through the motions

You meet someone

They promise you the stars, the moon, the sun

Things seem to go well for awhile

They even convince you to walk down the aisle

Then with a mighty…

Looking ahead

The light is brilliant

My future is bright

Brighter than it's been in a long time

Hope is alive in my heart

One step in front of the other

Doing what I can each day

To accomplish my goals

Dreaming big

Ready to make those dreams come true

Shards of an old life try to cut me

Slice my chest wide open

But their once sharp edges

Have grown soft

They feel feathery and…

Chestnut curls and a cute button nose

Just like hers

Brilliant hazel eyes and dimples

Just like yours

I can hear her angelic voice

She puts her tiny hand in mine

Smiles and my heart melts

"Grandma", she squeals in delight

There's nothing I wouldn't do for her

Just as I feel the same about you

She sits in my lap

And I read her her favorite story

I remember when you were this…

When I was little

You were so strong

So capable of doing anything

How I admired you

I remember our trips to the store

The candy you'd buy me if I was good

The garage sales and trips to the library

So many books, scattered throughout the house

I loved talking to you

And laying by you

Watching PBS or perhaps Murder She Wrote

Listening to your laughter

You have always been full of…

Sometimes I look at my stomach

I see the marks left upon it

Ten years they've been there now

Some think they're hideous

Even I have thought so a time or two

I remember a time before they were there

The smooth skin, being a size one

No real sense of resposibility

Could come and go as I pleased

How life has changed

Over the years

I have come to cherish these marks

Each one symbolizes the love…