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Some days seem endless

Such is the case with today

The sun beats down upon my head

I look to the sky

And I ask the stars

"Are you ever going to come & play?"

 

The temperature slowly begins to drop

My skin starts to cool from the day's heat

I lay in the soft grass and stare

My thoughts begin to blur

Fading in and out of consciousness

The sky is now brillant shades of orange, red, & purple

 

Sleep must have found me

Though for how long, I'm unsure

The stars are out

Twinkling and dancing before me

Greeting me with their bright light

Well hello moon, hello night

 

We're old friends

The stars and I

We relate well to one another

They tell me of the things they see

All across the world

I tell them about my day

 

After awhile, all goes quiet

Except for the voices in my head

I rise and decide to take a drive

Windows down, music up

Trying to still the noises within me

By means of distraction

 

I find it much harder to see the past

When the world around me is dark

Looking in the review mirror

All I see are shadows of what once was

Making it easier to hope, to believe

That all will be alright

 

As my racing thoughts begin to slow down

I single them out one at a time

Reasoning with each one

Making peace with the demons within

Taking control of my mind

Finding comfort in the solitude

 

Happiness will only be achieved 

When I'm truly at peace with who I am

Be okay with being on my own

Not needing the presence of another

To make me feel whole

That's something I must be able to do on my own

 

Let go of the hate that's rooted itself

Weed it out

Forgive others, release myself from this prison

Forgive myself, lay it all to rest

Find perspective

Look ahead

 

I find myself at home

Taking the stairs in the dark

Knowing the war within goes on

But another battle has been won

One day at a time

Till freedom is mine

 

Lying in bed

Thanking God for my salvation

Grateful for all the blessings in my life

My son, the brightest light of all

No measure of time with him will be enough

Seeing his smile in my mind

 

Preparing for the future

One that will be good for him

And for me

Praying for courage, for strength

Asking for guidance 

So that I may do what's right

 

Faces flash before my heavy lids

So many that I adore

Honored to know such great souls

My visions begin to run together

And before I know it

I'm out like the day's last light

 

Good-night.