What I Learned

So as many of you have read/heard, though some of you have not heard, I was recently in jail for an old unpaid OWI fine. Let me tell you, it was one heck of an experience. I learned A LOT while there. I also met some really cool people too. Though, I'd say that the overall experience was NOT a fun one. I was able to spend a lot of time thinking and able to put much into perspective. I realized more than ever just how much I took for granted before. I also got a lot closer to God. My relationship with Him was lukewarm. Since I have been home, I have been so happy with the little things. I have also been praying daily and keeping close to Him. Because of my renewed relationship with the Lord and my renewed respect and appreciation for the little things in life, which by the way aren't so little when you think about it, I am a lot happier than I used to be. I could complain about lack of money, needing a job, wanting a b/f, etc...I could, but I won't. Life could be A LOT worse, A LOT...it has been. I do have a home, one I was able to save...thanks to Grandma. I have my own bed to sleep in again, privacy to shower....and when it comes to that, I have shampoo, a razor to shave with, decent soap, a brush for my long and snarly hair, a good toothbrush, good toothpaste, etc. I love being able to change my clothes daily, do laundry when needed, eat decent food, see my son, see my friends, and oh my....just seeing OUTSIDE...the sun, flowers, trees, animals, people enjoying the weather....even seeing the lightning and the rain. There are so many things I complained about, so many things I took for granted. Being in jail was an amazing eye opener! And while I came home to some major blows to my life, I know deep down that things can and have been getting better. On Monday, I can go to the DMV to get my license back. I won't have to be paranoid anymore and/or stuck at home. After the Group Dynamic course I have to take, it will stay valid. :) I have been appyling like crazy to jobs, I am optimistic that I will find one soon. My son is home, perhaps driving me a little insane ha ha, but I am happy he's here. One of the hardest things about being in jail was being away from my son. I got what fix I could by looking at other people's pictures. Though after seeing them, I'd feel even sadder. Being away from him and others I love was so hard. And like I said, there was much I took for granted...but not anymore. And, I vowed while there to live differently when I got home. I'm 31 and my priorities need to be different....and they are now. If people can't understand that, then they're not my friends. But, most of you have been nothing but supportive. And, thank you for the words of encouragement and the belief you have in me. I love you. I hope you all know that, that you're never left doubting it. <3 <3 I will be posting poetry soon and perhaps a sneak peek at the book I'm writing about my experiences. :)