Voices That Won't Win

The voices inside my head have got me so paranoid

Leaving me feeling quite annoyed

I wish that I knew how to silence them for good

Oh how I would if I could

 

Sometimes the things they say frighten me

Twisting everything that I see

Other times they tell me I’ll fail at something I want to do

“Oh girl, why do you try? You surely haven’t got a clue.”

 

Sometimes they feed my anger, egging me on

Telling me to do bad things, making me their pawn

Now most times I don’t give in

I have sworn not to let them win

 

Every now and then, they comfort me like a dear friend

Each insecurity, they find a way to mend

I often feel so torn inside

In whom can I truly confide?

 

Many would say I am a freak

I fear there’s no one to give me the solace I seek

I wish these voices within never existed

They leave me feeling so torn apart and twisted

 

Within the darkness inside, there is one light

One that helps me get some sleep at night

When I pray to God up above

He conquers the voices with his love

 

Now and then I forget to seek His hand

Thinking that alone I can make a stand

Then the voices pull me into waters deep

Gnawing at my soul, causing me to weep

 

I wonder at times if this will ever end

God, your help please send

Don’t leave them for me to conquer on my own

“Oh child, don’t you know, you’re never alone.”

 

Some days are a difficult for me, I must admit

Though overall I am usually able to keep my wit

I tell this to you all now because I’m no longer ashamed

To tell you about these voices within that can’t be named

 

They don’t define me

That is something I finally see

I hope you can see that’s true

Let my heart show you with the things that I do