Response to Rick's blog, Spending the day...

Intimate time with Jesus is beyond beautiful, beyond magnificent, beyond description...it is the time apart that
feels like seperation...living between two worlds...that is unbearable...
Sometimes wonder if I should have been
much more careful of what I prayed for...

Lord,
Let me sleep tonight
on Your couch
Not share our mattress
Let me rest my head
put it
to bed...

Can't you see my Love
has swelled
to bag my eyes
droop my mouth
to eternal pout...
Sorry, so sorry I
don't seem to do well
with this thing
called marriaged...
These arms, why did You
take these arms
down Your aisle?
Vows to You bind...
there is no legal divorce
no court this house
to divide
Bathwater's tepid
lukewarm
Wrinkled and pruned
Your keeping me
here too long...

If you Love me,
why'd you have to
tame me?!

I want someone else
to play with my hair
breathe life on my cheek
to bury my face in a chest
that lets me know I am
still here, that
I am so called "for real"

My spirit is pinned in pain
of this sickness
Yet, You've given me
the beauty and grace
of Mary's arm
Mary,s face
over that bloated-belly-
cross till it rises,
rises through my lips...Till
it rises through my lips

You dressed me in
the most elegant
and raw
gown of purity
That dress flowing free, loose
danced with me
I don't remember...?Did I walk?
down that aisle
I don't think so
for my heels could not grab earth...

I remember You told me
the next time it rained,
"When Love's saliva
taps your shoulder again,
just lay down in the rain...
Lay down. Lay down for awhile."

I did...I told You,
"Mud upon skin, I
cleanse myself...fill
my palms with lathered
kisses that change me
colorful over stains."
I did...Replaced my wardrobe
with those leaves
so vulnerable and exposed
I laid down
laid it all down
laid me down...
Just as lovers do,
while they're in persuit,
You were so sweet, romantic
communication was open, clear...
You wanted me
I gave
You took me
Now that You have me
I wait here in this room
as You leave me tormented
in the feeling of
having You and missing You
at the same time...