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A lump has formed inside my chest. It is heavy, a true burden. I don't know when it became. It just is. It is rude and interrupting, like a telemarketer calling during Christmas supper. It burns inside of me; yearning for attention, wanting to affect my every thought, my every move. It claws at my heart, my lungs, my ribs; its only purpose to cause harm and distraction. It scars my organs and tears at my throat with a passion so thorough it is terrifying. I begin to feel nauseous, as though I can expel the lump. But I know I can't. I can only heal it. But how? How does one heal a tumor of pain; of heartache?

 

I cry. I cry long and hard. I yearn and pine for what will never be; what should never be. Eventually, I quiet, my shaking sobs winding down to silent tears, and finally, a dry face. I breathe slowly: it's rocky at first, but soon it becomes even. I lift my chin and set my jaw. My eyes narrow. I am ready to face the world again.

 

As I re-enter society, no one appears to notice the redness of my cheeks or the puffiness of my eyes. Good. Tonight, I want no questions. Tonight, I need no sympathy. Tonight, I am taking care of myself.

 

Tonight, I am strong.

 

Written 21 February 2008

c. 2008, Steen Krause

 

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Comment by Carissa Galow on April 9, 2011 at 11:49am
Like Maryrose said, an emotional piece. "How does one heal a tumor of pain, of heartache?" Wow, just wow. I couldn't have said it better myself. I really like this.
Comment by Steen Krause on March 29, 2011 at 10:41pm
Thank you loads, Alexis! :)
Comment by Alexis Vear on March 29, 2011 at 4:56pm
WOW!!!  That was incredible!!!  Really related and felt empowered by that!!!  Thank You!!!
Comment by Steen Krause on March 28, 2011 at 11:02pm
Thank you, MaryRose and Brenda. I really appreciate it.
Comment by Brenda Siegelman on March 28, 2011 at 7:10pm

I hope you have more good days than bad now...your piece touched my heart.

I know the lump all too well. I'm glad to see this piece was written years ago...

Comment by Maryrose Orlans on March 28, 2011 at 7:07pm

Emotional piece!

Comment by Steen Krause on March 28, 2011 at 7:01pm
Thanks! I grinned at that part while typing it up.
Comment by wiffledust on March 28, 2011 at 6:55pm
oooo...now this is powerful!!!! i like the "my eyes narrow" best! excellent description, steen!!!!!! you go, girl!!!!

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